OUCH !!!

My baby boy wont get out of my ribs... he is on my left side and has ben in my ribs all day .. OUUUCHHH !!! I have a dr. app in the morning and again I hope it goes well. I get so nervous every appointment and monitoring session now becuase I do not want to go back in the hospital. Next week I have an ultrasound I am soooooo excited to see how much the babies have grown. I wish they had a name already !

Christmas Time

We had a Great Christmas ! On Christmas Eve we celebrated by going to Tims Grandparents house and getting together with the family. It was so great to see Ryan playing with all his cousins. (these are Tims cousins children). Ryan loves to call all of them even if he knows their name COUSIN !! This is them playing games and singing Christmas songs.

We went home and put out cookies for Santa... Well Ryan remembered that they did it in his story I read him "The Night Before Christmas" so he grabbed the book and tried to find the part about cookies. He was thrilled.

We fell alseep waiting for santa to come ... My Mom & James were here from Oklahoma to spend Christmas with us. It was great ... we woke up and Ryan was a lil crabby not ready to get out of bed. he didnt get Christmas pj's this year .. I had to depend on Tim to buy everything and well I didnt want to put to much on his plate (he did Great by the way). Ryan has not been a santa fan these past few weeks .. even after reading about him watching cartoons about him .. he still didnt want him in his house. I thought he was cured after leaving the cookies he was so thrilled .. but not really ! He loved all of his gifts. After opening presents here we went to my Inlaws opened there and then to my Granmothers opened there and back to my Inlaws for dinner and Bingo. We headed home to spend the rest of the night playing Wii. and having a great time. My Mom & Tim were very competetive and she could not let him beat her score. haha I of course sat back and Watched and laughed way to hard !

My mom is usually an open book when it comes to gifts. We always know what she is getting us .. this year I had NOOO clue. Well I got a Kodak zi6 video camera http://www.kodak.com/eknec/PageQuerier.jhtml?pq-path=13063&pq-locale=en_US Its awsome I love it ! My mom bought Tim a gun (after many many many months of thinking extremly hard about this). We are both going to get handgun liscense and take safty classes. We got a Wii from tims mom as our family gift.. and Ryan just got so much I wouldnt know where to begin. It was truly a great time... and Next year with 3 kids will be an even more awsome christmas. I am truly blessed.

Opps!!!

The pic below is actualy 30 weeks , Ill be 31 weeks on friday !

Twin Belly at 31 weeks :)

WOOO HOOO getting close :) This belly is huge .. makes me have chicken legs !

My mission for the day & some thoughts.

So this morning Tim & I were talking about the babies and kept saying him & her. I told him we really need to name them soon... he said he just was thinking that. So im going to be on a name mission all day ... we have a few combos but not sure what we want. So im going to add a few more. We thought we were set in the names then NOPE it changed.


Also I was thinking yesterday about how much I hate doing laundry ... now I dont mind putting it in the washer or the dryer ... but I HATE puting it away. So I thought wow .. im going to have a family of FIVE ... Im going to have to do laundry for FIVE people. I guess I better start liking it.

I have been feeling better.. my itchyness is still there but going away SLOWLY ... I have a Dr. app in the morning. I am hoping that things go well. I should be having another ultrasound sound next week but with it being the holiday it might be the next week. Im so excited becuase I want to know how big they are. Just give me a piece of mind.

Update & very itchy !

So I got sprung from the joint on tuesday ... I had to wait on a nurse from Matria to bring me the pump for my leg. So it was 4 by the time we got out and got home and I GOT TO SEE MY BABY !!! Well the pump was such a pain in the leg .. it was just in the way couldnt take a shower with out it hanging in a lil waterproof purse thing , hard to sleep with it too. Well wed. I started seeing lil pred spots pop up and my arm still hurt so bad from the shot gone wrong. Then thursday they got way worse the red spots spread all over my chest & arms & face. AND ITCHES LIKE CRAZY. I had an appointment this morning and the nurse practioner was saying how happy that she is we made it to 30 weeks .. now lets shoot for 32 and 34 is great 36 is icing on the cake. Now I have a personal goal and thats 34-35 weeks. Thats what I hope I can make. She thought that this rash was becuase my liver was just not keeping up with how hard my body is makeing it work and was umping toxins in my body. But the Dr. said she had the feeling its a allergic reaction to the med in the pump. That she has never seen any one with that reaction. So we stoped the pump .. Im kind of gald but this pump was not letting me contract since I had it. I asked the dr. what the next step was and she kinda of let out a giggle and said im sorry there is Nothing outpatient that we can do. I cant belive that there is not another opion :( So that means if I start contracting that I will go back to the hopsital and stay till my lil ones are born. I pray that does not happen.. I dont want to miss the holiday or Ryans 3rd birthday ( I think that would kill me). And not to mention every day life of Ryan and being at home. It would be at least for another month. ... So Im praying for just no contractions so I can be at home with my boys. I go back next week on christmas eve for an appointment. I hope my cervix does not change in that time too ... that would mean going back also. Man Ihave alot of praying to do !

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Still here ! I am waiting on a terbutaline pump that has to be brought to me by an outside agency, its the agency that I currently use for the monitor. Well this med seems like its going to be a pain. But I must do what I have to. But today i was told by one of the Dr's in the office I use that it will be today for sure. Well Matria (the outside agency) calls me to ask when im going home blahh blah they have been checking on me since being here. I say well Im waiting on you guys to come give me the pump. WELL she tells me to hold on and shows No call has been made to get this monitor. Well then she wants to speak to my nurse and gets this ball rolling. WHEN WAS THE DR. OR HOSPITAL GOING TO DO THIS ON THEIR OWN ?? So hours later I call back to check on the status and the lady talls me that my ins will need a note from a high risk Dr. Thank goodness I had to see her in order to get the monitor so then they were emailing her asking her to call about the pump. All of this the day I was supposed to go home. Now I know I know I need to do what ever I can for these babies but its just sooooo hard & emotional. I have slept away from Ryan for nearly a week since the night I felt bad he wanted to stay at his Litas )Tims mom) house. Wich was so suprising. I have necer been away from him more than one night at a time and that has only been twice since I have been at the hospital. Its killing me. So I hope that tom I can go home and be done with this place till its time for the babies to come. My dr. said he would not relase me with out these meds... so hopefully soon. :(

Prayers and Hope !

I need prayers that these babies stayin for a while longer .. 5 weeksat the least would give me piece of Mind. I need to hold on to my Hope that tom. (monday ) Iwill be able to go home. I have been here in the hospital since wednsday morning. And its Not easy. I miss the comfort of my home... the not being hooked to monitors and Most of all I miss my baby !! He is doing so good with his Grandmas but I am not doing so great being away from him. I cry and just want to hear him. Talking on the phone to him makes it that much harder. When he comes to visit me I tell him I miss him and he Replys THANKS MOM ! ahah smartie ! I came in to the hospital becuase being hooked up to my monitors at home I had 5 contractions that morning. So my dr. wanted me to go to labor and delivery to get checked. Then they decided to keep me here and give me meds. These meds are NO NO Fun ! I was extremly hot and light headed and very very bad headache with blurred vision. Well once they cut the med intake down I felt a lil better. I had 4 shots of steriod just incase they came early. And I also had to have my weekely shot Tim gives me. .... well the NURSE (RRRR) said to put the shot in my arm .. OUCH !!! Its hard as a rock , swollen red and totally unusbale ! For the past 2 days. The burse today said i just cant belive she did that ... You didnt need that there. THanks .. but its to late now. :( last night after having a very upset stomach that wasnt letting anything out and even vomitting becuase I was feeling Ill, I started having lil more contractions All I could do was CRY I DID NOT WANT MORE MEDS .. i want to go home monday. (Now I know I need to stay here for the babies .. but if its just to be monitored and its not changing my body please please let me go). With the meds dossage up I gpt a lil sleep and then woke up to getiing blood sugars drawn and heart rate and temp. taken. Well after that they helped me with a sleeping pill wich seems to be somthing i have taken every night since i have been here. Then today they lowered the meds back down. i have one nurse who I really really like and she is saying everything looks really really good. SOOOOOO Im still being hopefull that monday i can get home . AND Im still praying each night that these babies stay put and take it easy on my body. First of all I want healthy babies ... at the same time I need some sort of sanity. Before I start crying again I better stop typing. All the prayers and good wished will help. Thank you !

Heard of Buffalos ???

RRRRRRR....... Yes my friends this is a vent !! I belive that buffalos live above me. SERIOUSLY I dont see how a human can make that much noise. Its not to the point at night where we cant sleep or anything like that .. its just plain annoying (partly hormones). I have never lived in an apartment so I have never dealt with this . Just wanted to say .. RRRRRR !!!

Hummmmm

Well ... Its been awhile since I wrote I PROMISE Ill start making it more of a point to blog !!
This Christmas should be a very interesting one ... my hands are tied. Between the Dr's and the enforcer Tim I cant do any Christmas shopping. SOOOO Tim will have to do it all. Im sure there will be lots of gift cards handed out. Thank goodness for Wachovia Visa cards. We will actually be very busy the few days around Christmas .. my mom will be here and we will do our normal Christmas eve at my Grandmothers .. then off to Tims Grandmothers. Christmas morning we will wake up at our apartment :( to bad I cant say house.. Then will proably head to Tims moms house then Back to My Grandmothers for Christmas lunch then back to Tims mom for dinner. Then that saturday we will get with friends and have a Christmas party at there home. NOW this kind of cracks me up. I was thinking that every one would be easy to buy for ... except 1 of the guys. And well I pulled his name !! Also this guy has a qirk .. he cant stand to see empty toilet paper rolls .. it drives him CRAZY . Its kind of a story I laughed at many many years ago and actually dont remember the whole thing but I crack up when toilet paper rolls are mentioned in his presence. I have been saving them as a gag gift for him. So im thinking I will add them to his real gift. I think Ill get the biggest laugh out of this.

Ok Im back to making my list ... and thinking of drawings maps on where tim can find the gifts on the list :)